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I'd not like to thank the academy
For all the scars that it gave me
For all the insecurities
For all the nights without sleep
For Killing people close to me
They can't eat and they can't think
They Can't find the room to breathe
Replaced our hopes with your schemes
(Chorus)
Well this is the time that we've been waiting for
Yours is the crime for which we've prepared for war
And you can't kill me cause I'm already gone
Fell on my ow sword before we've even begun
I don't know you very well but I'm fully prepared to give you hell
I don't like you very much but that's fine that's fine that's fine that's fine
I'm predispositioned to hate your guts
(Chorus)
And I don't care that it's not fair
I'm too wrapped up in my own involvement
And I don't care that I'm drowning and I'm drowning cause
I'm drowning in your despair
(Chorus)
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Are We Done Here?
02:38
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Made up my mind around this time last week
Don't know why it took so long but finally I will be free
When the clock strikes nine I won't be hearing your screams
I'm finally out of this mess I've washed my hands so good riddance
(Chorus)
And I told you before that this day would come
So don't be surprised no don't let those tears run
We're both miserable I think think I made the right call
I get it no respect oh is that all
A cigarette floats down the creek as I roll down my sleeves
Another habit to erase in just as many weeks
I'm gonna give away all my cash and burn all of my ids
I may find myself but you will never find me
(Chorus)
And it's true that I've had secret doubts on this
Maybe I'm addicted to feeling like utter shit so
Please don't look away and please don't throw a fit
Don't wanna stick this pencil in your eye or stick this razor in my wrist
(Chorus)
Is that all... (X4)
Cause I'm done with this
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One Day
04:22
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One day you'll be sleepin' with the fishes
Ain't that the dream
One day it'll all come flooding back and
All that's left is just what it seems
You traded in your book smarts for street smarts
You thought you knew the game
All you had in your bag was a broken heart
And the will to forget that from which you came
Maybe one day you'll be sittin' here in my place
And maybe one day you'll finally find a reason to stay but
(Chorus)
Right here and oh right now
Nothing's quite what it seemed
Nothing's quite how you dreamed it
And right here and oh right now
All that you thought would amount to something has come undone and turned to nothin'
One day you'll be rolling over in your grave
Nothing left to eat away
Your last conscious thought is just that you ought
To find a way to ease the pain
Your mind it still hurts sometimes so bad
You just can't help but scream out the questions
And you'll find that you'll never quite find that for which your lookin'
And the only resolution is the hole that they put you in
Maybe one day you'll be lying here n my grave and oh
Maybe one day you'll finally realize why you can't stay cause
(Chorus)
Please oh please don't forget what we meant and oh please
Oh please please just forget what we meant
Cause maybe the questions that you've been askin' are just as trivial as where you've been lookin' (X2)
And maybe just maybe you'll never really quite find the answers
Dust to dust and ash to ash I think it's best that we don;t look back cause
Maybe one day you'll be sitting here in my place and oh
Maybe one day you'll finally find a reason to stay but not
Right here and oh right now (X4)
Please forget or don't forget
The questions that you've been asking
Is there nothing worth attacking
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All ye who surround me are just like children
Who can't take care of themselves cant take care of themselves
Well I can't sleep gotta take care of the children
Who can't take care of themselves can't take care of themselves
David wants to drink he thinks it's gonna be real fun
Oh I think he'd get down with just about anyone
He says he wants to feel anything but what he's been feelin'
And the world sends Kate reeling as she takes another sip
(Chorus)
Well you broke the promise I made as I wait
In this empty parking lot hoping to get stabbed or shot
And I just can't help the rage as it flows through my veins
And I think that I've gotta take it out on somethin'
The more I learn the madder I get
Oh I'd like to learn the burn of a cigarette
The truth's just what you know - If i don't tell you then it never happened
And pretty soon I'll forget it myself
(Chorus)
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I've lost all my interest
Just another hopeless case
Don't bother with a warning
I'm not speeding up my pace
Pretty soon you'll kick me out
It's just a matter of time
When you discover my true motive
Cause yours does not align with mine
And pretty soon i hope that I'm not still lookin' back
And pretty soon I hope that I've finally left this class
(Chorus)
Cause honestly I don't know that it means too much to me
And truth be told I'd rather not try to get clean
It's too much work
And honestly it doesn't mean too much to me
And getting cleans just to deny that the monster breathes
And it still lurks
I'm still stuck here with just a paper and a pen
Cause a pencil and some paper have quickly become my only friends
Counting down the seconds until my sentence starts
You know what I changed my mind
I'd rather keep you in the dark
(Chorus)
...
(Chorus) X2
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I stumble through my pockets with cold hands and a smoker's dexterity
I fumble through this life on the rotten foundations of a half-hearted heresy
With words stolen from hands blackened by stray cigarettes
With hopes torn from my notebook thrown in the waste basket
If there's one thing I know you will never regret
It's learning how learning how to forget
It's not that I don't like you I just like myself more
How could I not when your company's such a bore
I'll say some things some true some not
Just to get you to... To get you to piss off
I guess it's true that I'm not what I've been pretending
To be for so long
I'm just another punk ass lazy apathetic kid wasting time underneath the sun
All I want is a world where I've got your back as long as you've got mine
All I want is to feel like I've found freedom, left the shackles behind
I wade through a book of Marx in all its glory and its doom
A thin veil of smoke escapes my lungs and casts doubt on the moon
So can I turn to you and consume your warmth now that I'm cold again
Can I turn away deny you the same now that I'm warm again
We would not turn back now if we wanted to not to say we could
Splayed beneath the skies, stars brighter every night, it was then we understood
All I want is a world where I've got your back as long as you've got mine
All I want is to feel like I've found freedom, left the shackles behind
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I Could Use a Cigarette
03:15
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703 miles to Aberdeen
Worth every cent spent on gasoline
And I don't even know if I'll be able to go
I don't even know but I can hope
1164
Miles to Rome, Georgia with the peddle stuck to the floor
And I don't even know if I'll be able to go
I don't even know but I can hope
We'll get thrown out of an amusement park
Fucking wasted lost in the dark
So we'll just sleep underneath the stars
Smoking cigarettes under the stars
You opened up my skull like a cheap pack of cigs
Stole my lighter and burnt my skin
And I don't even know if these scars are gonna show
I don't even know but I can hope
My own words were my own worst foe
Spilt blood on the page couldn't keep my veins closed
And I don't even know if these scars are gonna show
I don't even know but I can hope
And isn't it strange how the thing that I'll most miss
Is sneaking out late smoking stolen cigarettes
And I don't even know if this buzz is just the smoke
All I know is I don't wanna go home
Oh all I know is I don't wanna go home
Oh and middle class guilt's got me shaking with each note
If i can't get a smoke then it's all over
GPA's noose has wrapped its fingers 'round my throat
The last thing that I want is to be sober
Oh the last thing that I want is to be sober(X3)
If i can't get a smoke then it's all over
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If i get stopped by a cop tonight I swear to god I'l tell the truth
Just like i tell my mom but that's a lie
I guess all that i can do is try to live up to
All the promises that i haven't broken yet
As i lay here with you it seems to me that
There's still hope left yet as long as we both live and breathe
So let's just lay here, talkin' political theory
Tryin' to figure out how to disassemble hierarchy
And if the world burns down tonight let's laugh and spit in god's face
We're only here for just a minute so let's not show that fucker any thanks
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9. |
An Hour in the Goat Pen
02:47
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I trust my feet to take me where I need to go
Walk me off a cliff walk me to a smoke
I trust my mouth to lie to everyone that I love
I trust my tongue to mess up when i need to fess up
I tried to keep my mouth closed
But the words they came unprovoked yet again
If you're the angel and I'm the asshole
Tell me where do I sign to stray from god's flock
You can't put a price on having nothing to live for
I try to keep my calm when I fail to deliver
Cause if I cant if I relapse
Then I guess I'll lose my mind just like I lost track of the time well
The truth is a tramp vomitin' in the sewer
Well did you catch her name - No sorry never knew her
Fast food chains mark the demise of our future
I'd rather shovel shit than be flippin' burgers
Well Maybe I ain't got the right to feels way
No I ain't got the right ain't got the right to feel this way
So if i ain't got the right to feel this way then
I guess I may as well live to angst another day
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I'm so mad at everyone for everything
They don't deserve it but that doesn't curve it
That doesn't help a thing
And pretty soon I hope that my frustration does pass
Cause anger's not a gift when it keeps you from sleepin' at night
And pretty soon I hope we can stop livin' in the past
Stop siftin' through the ashes and get ready for the fight
(Chorus)
And I know this isn't so easy for you
And I know I'm not always so easy to get along with but
I hope you know I'm tryin'
I hope you know I'm tryin'
So screw this life and screw this livin'
I'm starting to feel like I've got a heart condition
All I've ever been told is what I can't be
And screw the system cause the system killed him
He ran a hose from the exhaust pipe to the cabin
Turned the key and breathed more peacefully
(Chorus) X2
(Chorus)X2
So screw the system cause the system killed him
He ran a hose from the exhaust pipe to the cabin
Turned the key and breathed more peacefully
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11. |
A Song for Alex
02:42
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I hope you know your job's a prison
I hope you know you're life ain't worth livin'
I won't let it be that way for mine
I hope you know that it was all over
The moment you ducked your head for cover
I won't let it be that way for mine
I'd rather change my name and live in disgrace
Rather make my home all over the place
Rather make my meals whatever i find
I'd rather burn my cash and cut my ids
Rather say goodbye to everything
Than live within your confines
Yeah
I hope you know there's things to see
That you would barely even believe
If you just took a step outside your door
Quit your job leave that joke behind
Give the bird to the chains that bind
Clean the puke up off the floor
Cause maybe then I would see you and you would see me
And we could all live in perfect harmony
Forget the lines, forget we're torn
Cause we're all dead at the end of the day
We're the worms all you can eat buffet
Just wanna forget the day I was born
so now I walk into the wild
Up the creek without a paddle
Every second will be a battle
Every day a chance to learn
Why I'm here
Why I breathe
What it means to be happy
I admit that I'm hungry
I'll gladly die as long as I'm still free
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12. |
A Bleedin' Shame
01:52
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I'm a happy drunk who does unhappy things
I act real tough but I don't know what that means
I shout at the world look outcha buncha sheep
Fall on my face, stiffle a scream
(Chorus)
Don't got enough to pay so I'll be on my way
Dont know what ta say oh isnt that a shame
Wish I never came cause it all looks the same
I'd spray myself with mace to get outta this place yeah
You left town so I watched your dogs
Stole your booze wrote some songs
Tried to forget all the tests I've flunked
Cry baby cry because youre fucked
(Chorus)
Can't find a job not sure if I'm sane
Chasin' my tail hatin' my name
All I do is complain complain complain
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
(Chorus) X3
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It makes me sick to remember all the times that you must have hurt
I must be sick now to wonder what it must feel to go so beserk
All the nights that you bled and cried
All the nights that you wanted to die
All the nights that I've heaved and sighed
Hoping to escape this mundane life so
Tell me now that it's worth it
Think of all that you leave behind
It's not in me to unearth it
I think it's something that I can't define
So we'll run if we have to we'll be
Drinking coffee in Huesca tomorrow
We'll run if we have to what we
Don't have we'll steal and borrow
We'll run if we have to because
All we really have is us, all we really have is us
I know we'll run if we have to because
If freedom's what we want all we can really do is run
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Ryan Blaire Denver, Colorado
Acoustic Punk songs from a small town in Colorado. Hit me up if you're interested in doing some sort of musicy thing together!
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