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Codename: T​.​J. Eckleburg

by Ryan Blaire

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1.
I'd not like to thank the academy For all the scars that it gave me For all the insecurities For all the nights without sleep For Killing people close to me They can't eat and they can't think They Can't find the room to breathe Replaced our hopes with your schemes (Chorus) Well this is the time that we've been waiting for Yours is the crime for which we've prepared for war And you can't kill me cause I'm already gone Fell on my ow sword before we've even begun I don't know you very well but I'm fully prepared to give you hell I don't like you very much but that's fine that's fine that's fine that's fine I'm predispositioned to hate your guts (Chorus) And I don't care that it's not fair I'm too wrapped up in my own involvement And I don't care that I'm drowning and I'm drowning cause I'm drowning in your despair (Chorus)
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Made up my mind around this time last week Don't know why it took so long but finally I will be free When the clock strikes nine I won't be hearing your screams I'm finally out of this mess I've washed my hands so good riddance (Chorus) And I told you before that this day would come So don't be surprised no don't let those tears run We're both miserable I think think I made the right call I get it no respect oh is that all A cigarette floats down the creek as I roll down my sleeves Another habit to erase in just as many weeks I'm gonna give away all my cash and burn all of my ids I may find myself but you will never find me (Chorus) And it's true that I've had secret doubts on this Maybe I'm addicted to feeling like utter shit so Please don't look away and please don't throw a fit Don't wanna stick this pencil in your eye or stick this razor in my wrist (Chorus) Is that all... (X4) Cause I'm done with this
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One Day 04:22
One day you'll be sleepin' with the fishes Ain't that the dream One day it'll all come flooding back and All that's left is just what it seems You traded in your book smarts for street smarts You thought you knew the game All you had in your bag was a broken heart And the will to forget that from which you came Maybe one day you'll be sittin' here in my place And maybe one day you'll finally find a reason to stay but (Chorus) Right here and oh right now Nothing's quite what it seemed Nothing's quite how you dreamed it And right here and oh right now All that you thought would amount to something has come undone and turned to nothin' One day you'll be rolling over in your grave Nothing left to eat away Your last conscious thought is just that you ought To find a way to ease the pain Your mind it still hurts sometimes so bad You just can't help but scream out the questions And you'll find that you'll never quite find that for which your lookin' And the only resolution is the hole that they put you in Maybe one day you'll be lying here n my grave and oh Maybe one day you'll finally realize why you can't stay cause (Chorus) Please oh please don't forget what we meant and oh please Oh please please just forget what we meant Cause maybe the questions that you've been askin' are just as trivial as where you've been lookin' (X2) And maybe just maybe you'll never really quite find the answers Dust to dust and ash to ash I think it's best that we don;t look back cause Maybe one day you'll be sitting here in my place and oh Maybe one day you'll finally find a reason to stay but not Right here and oh right now (X4) Please forget or don't forget The questions that you've been asking Is there nothing worth attacking
4.
All ye who surround me are just like children Who can't take care of themselves cant take care of themselves Well I can't sleep gotta take care of the children Who can't take care of themselves can't take care of themselves David wants to drink he thinks it's gonna be real fun Oh I think he'd get down with just about anyone He says he wants to feel anything but what he's been feelin' And the world sends Kate reeling as she takes another sip (Chorus) Well you broke the promise I made as I wait In this empty parking lot hoping to get stabbed or shot And I just can't help the rage as it flows through my veins And I think that I've gotta take it out on somethin' The more I learn the madder I get Oh I'd like to learn the burn of a cigarette The truth's just what you know - If i don't tell you then it never happened And pretty soon I'll forget it myself (Chorus)
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I've lost all my interest Just another hopeless case Don't bother with a warning I'm not speeding up my pace Pretty soon you'll kick me out It's just a matter of time When you discover my true motive Cause yours does not align with mine And pretty soon i hope that I'm not still lookin' back And pretty soon I hope that I've finally left this class (Chorus) Cause honestly I don't know that it means too much to me And truth be told I'd rather not try to get clean It's too much work And honestly it doesn't mean too much to me And getting cleans just to deny that the monster breathes And it still lurks I'm still stuck here with just a paper and a pen Cause a pencil and some paper have quickly become my only friends Counting down the seconds until my sentence starts You know what I changed my mind I'd rather keep you in the dark (Chorus) ... (Chorus) X2
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I stumble through my pockets with cold hands and a smoker's dexterity I fumble through this life on the rotten foundations of a half-hearted heresy With words stolen from hands blackened by stray cigarettes With hopes torn from my notebook thrown in the waste basket If there's one thing I know you will never regret It's learning how learning how to forget It's not that I don't like you I just like myself more How could I not when your company's such a bore I'll say some things some true some not Just to get you to... To get you to piss off I guess it's true that I'm not what I've been pretending To be for so long I'm just another punk ass lazy apathetic kid wasting time underneath the sun All I want is a world where I've got your back as long as you've got mine All I want is to feel like I've found freedom, left the shackles behind I wade through a book of Marx in all its glory and its doom A thin veil of smoke escapes my lungs and casts doubt on the moon So can I turn to you and consume your warmth now that I'm cold again Can I turn away deny you the same now that I'm warm again We would not turn back now if we wanted to not to say we could Splayed beneath the skies, stars brighter every night, it was then we understood All I want is a world where I've got your back as long as you've got mine All I want is to feel like I've found freedom, left the shackles behind
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703 miles to Aberdeen Worth every cent spent on gasoline And I don't even know if I'll be able to go I don't even know but I can hope 1164 Miles to Rome, Georgia with the peddle stuck to the floor And I don't even know if I'll be able to go I don't even know but I can hope We'll get thrown out of an amusement park Fucking wasted lost in the dark So we'll just sleep underneath the stars Smoking cigarettes under the stars You opened up my skull like a cheap pack of cigs Stole my lighter and burnt my skin And I don't even know if these scars are gonna show I don't even know but I can hope My own words were my own worst foe Spilt blood on the page couldn't keep my veins closed And I don't even know if these scars are gonna show I don't even know but I can hope And isn't it strange how the thing that I'll most miss Is sneaking out late smoking stolen cigarettes And I don't even know if this buzz is just the smoke All I know is I don't wanna go home Oh all I know is I don't wanna go home Oh and middle class guilt's got me shaking with each note If i can't get a smoke then it's all over GPA's noose has wrapped its fingers 'round my throat The last thing that I want is to be sober Oh the last thing that I want is to be sober(X3) If i can't get a smoke then it's all over
8.
If i get stopped by a cop tonight I swear to god I'l tell the truth Just like i tell my mom but that's a lie I guess all that i can do is try to live up to All the promises that i haven't broken yet As i lay here with you it seems to me that There's still hope left yet as long as we both live and breathe So let's just lay here, talkin' political theory Tryin' to figure out how to disassemble hierarchy And if the world burns down tonight let's laugh and spit in god's face We're only here for just a minute so let's not show that fucker any thanks
9.
I trust my feet to take me where I need to go Walk me off a cliff walk me to a smoke I trust my mouth to lie to everyone that I love I trust my tongue to mess up when i need to fess up I tried to keep my mouth closed But the words they came unprovoked yet again If you're the angel and I'm the asshole Tell me where do I sign to stray from god's flock You can't put a price on having nothing to live for I try to keep my calm when I fail to deliver Cause if I cant if I relapse Then I guess I'll lose my mind just like I lost track of the time well The truth is a tramp vomitin' in the sewer Well did you catch her name - No sorry never knew her Fast food chains mark the demise of our future I'd rather shovel shit than be flippin' burgers Well Maybe I ain't got the right to feels way No I ain't got the right ain't got the right to feel this way So if i ain't got the right to feel this way then I guess I may as well live to angst another day
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I'm so mad at everyone for everything They don't deserve it but that doesn't curve it That doesn't help a thing And pretty soon I hope that my frustration does pass Cause anger's not a gift when it keeps you from sleepin' at night And pretty soon I hope we can stop livin' in the past Stop siftin' through the ashes and get ready for the fight (Chorus) And I know this isn't so easy for you And I know I'm not always so easy to get along with but I hope you know I'm tryin' I hope you know I'm tryin' So screw this life and screw this livin' I'm starting to feel like I've got a heart condition All I've ever been told is what I can't be And screw the system cause the system killed him He ran a hose from the exhaust pipe to the cabin Turned the key and breathed more peacefully (Chorus) X2 (Chorus)X2 So screw the system cause the system killed him He ran a hose from the exhaust pipe to the cabin Turned the key and breathed more peacefully
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I hope you know your job's a prison I hope you know you're life ain't worth livin' I won't let it be that way for mine I hope you know that it was all over The moment you ducked your head for cover I won't let it be that way for mine I'd rather change my name and live in disgrace Rather make my home all over the place Rather make my meals whatever i find I'd rather burn my cash and cut my ids Rather say goodbye to everything Than live within your confines Yeah I hope you know there's things to see That you would barely even believe If you just took a step outside your door Quit your job leave that joke behind Give the bird to the chains that bind Clean the puke up off the floor Cause maybe then I would see you and you would see me And we could all live in perfect harmony Forget the lines, forget we're torn Cause we're all dead at the end of the day We're the worms all you can eat buffet Just wanna forget the day I was born so now I walk into the wild Up the creek without a paddle Every second will be a battle Every day a chance to learn Why I'm here Why I breathe What it means to be happy I admit that I'm hungry I'll gladly die as long as I'm still free
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I'm a happy drunk who does unhappy things I act real tough but I don't know what that means I shout at the world look outcha buncha sheep Fall on my face, stiffle a scream (Chorus) Don't got enough to pay so I'll be on my way Dont know what ta say oh isnt that a shame Wish I never came cause it all looks the same I'd spray myself with mace to get outta this place yeah You left town so I watched your dogs Stole your booze wrote some songs Tried to forget all the tests I've flunked Cry baby cry because youre fucked (Chorus) Can't find a job not sure if I'm sane Chasin' my tail hatin' my name All I do is complain complain complain blah blah blah blah blah blah blah (Chorus) X3
13.
It makes me sick to remember all the times that you must have hurt I must be sick now to wonder what it must feel to go so beserk All the nights that you bled and cried All the nights that you wanted to die All the nights that I've heaved and sighed Hoping to escape this mundane life so Tell me now that it's worth it Think of all that you leave behind It's not in me to unearth it I think it's something that I can't define So we'll run if we have to we'll be Drinking coffee in Huesca tomorrow We'll run if we have to what we Don't have we'll steal and borrow We'll run if we have to because All we really have is us, all we really have is us I know we'll run if we have to because If freedom's what we want all we can really do is run
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Acoustic Punk songs from a small town in Colorado. Recorded on a broken gaming mic, any money made from the album goes towards better recording equipment and buying more strings(cause I'm breaking them constantly).

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released January 24, 2016

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Ryan Blaire Denver, Colorado

Acoustic Punk songs from a small town in Colorado. Hit me up if you're interested in doing some sort of musicy thing together!

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